Goddamnit

I just woke up and I'm too afraid to leave my room because I'm too afraid to eat. I'm too afraid to get off of my bed to get up and let my cat out of the room because outside of the room it gets closer to food. I'm too afraid to get up and take a shower because that brings me closer to breakfast time. I can just put it off and off and off... I'm sure I'm going to eat. It's just fucked that I'm afraid to. And I don't know why.